eidelweiss
thought of the day
u think uve got it made...finally feel grownup and important...little things half ur height run around reaching up to ur knees...they literally look up to you/at you...they call u teacher and mean it. (they respect you u like to think)...they actually listen whn u finally manage to get their attention (does not mention tht u need to screech at them at the top of ur lungs or hit the duster against the whiteboard to get their attention).
So you're a teacher (relief or otherwise, she adds, with contempt) and your beginning to feel the part...sitting in a well furnished, comfy work area in a comfortable staffroom well protected from the noise and constant hullabaloo that rages outside these silent walls (soundproofing im certain)...thank god fr tht or all teachers will eventually go deaf as a snake...by the end of the working day u dont want to hear a sound...not even the odd adorable high pitched deceptively innocent 'bye teacher!!!!' from a deceptively innocent primary 1 kiddo....not even the sound of paper rustling or shoes shuffling along distant corridors...sometimes ur head adn ears hurt so bad, u dont even wanna hear the sound of silence....nothin....zilch. and just when you think uve blocked everything out, the high notes of the 'used to be considered melodious and pleasant' eidelweiss song fill the air...how it rackles. now dont mistake me, eidelweiss is a lovely song to be sung during some random music lesson or to listen to when your watching the sound of music fr the umpteenth time....it is NOT ok as the sickening school bell at the end/start of every bluddy period of every single day...esp not when it preempts noise, screaming,movement and more noise.
So anyway im thinking, im sitting here at my desk...i have my own laptop...and guess what...i realise i can't download/install msn or yahoo mesenger...not even web messenger...so whts the damn point of me having this lappy all to myself rite??!its administrator disabled...and this is the kinda autonomy trust and liberty your granted as a teacher?!?so what is one expected to do during the rare free period when you dont wanna look at another badly written/spelt/coloured piece of work??read a book silently??colour the page???sit with ur finger on ur lips??anything but msn huh....i think its just this sch tho...another friend of mine who was teaching at a sec. sch fr a while got all the privelege of internet access at ur own desk...well...inequality is another issue altogether.
contrary to common belief and presumption...i like this. i really do. when the squeaky hiiiigh pitched voiced squeals out from the crowd 'byeee teeeeacherrrr!!!'....when cliffy looks at me knowing im breaking out into an inevitable adoring smile, and he purses his lips, eyes defiant and cheeky , trying to decide if he should smile back or not..when kutie ktig gives me the irresistable wide grin, msing teeth and all... and i am hit by awwww and 'wait a sec, this isnt me, i dont really like kids' at once.when i tell kids during assembly to be quiet and pay attention (and they listen)..when i casually say 'hi' to the kids as i pass em by and they dont feel they have to get into 'ostrich mode' - (i really dnt stand for the 12th century china style bow students here greet teachers with).i even like hearing old fond and nearly forgotten terms like recess and tuckshop and sch dentist and basketball court. of late even the pledge and national anthem seem to have taken on renewed significance.
oh yea...i like it..i do....its just a short stint and perhaps that's why....for now,for all it's worth, i guess i cld continue to like it while it lasts...
u think uve got it made...finally feel grownup and important...little things half ur height run around reaching up to ur knees...they literally look up to you/at you...they call u teacher and mean it. (they respect you u like to think)...they actually listen whn u finally manage to get their attention (does not mention tht u need to screech at them at the top of ur lungs or hit the duster against the whiteboard to get their attention).
So you're a teacher (relief or otherwise, she adds, with contempt) and your beginning to feel the part...sitting in a well furnished, comfy work area in a comfortable staffroom well protected from the noise and constant hullabaloo that rages outside these silent walls (soundproofing im certain)...thank god fr tht or all teachers will eventually go deaf as a snake...by the end of the working day u dont want to hear a sound...not even the odd adorable high pitched deceptively innocent 'bye teacher!!!!' from a deceptively innocent primary 1 kiddo....not even the sound of paper rustling or shoes shuffling along distant corridors...sometimes ur head adn ears hurt so bad, u dont even wanna hear the sound of silence....nothin....zilch. and just when you think uve blocked everything out, the high notes of the 'used to be considered melodious and pleasant' eidelweiss song fill the air...how it rackles. now dont mistake me, eidelweiss is a lovely song to be sung during some random music lesson or to listen to when your watching the sound of music fr the umpteenth time....it is NOT ok as the sickening school bell at the end/start of every bluddy period of every single day...esp not when it preempts noise, screaming,movement and more noise.
So anyway im thinking, im sitting here at my desk...i have my own laptop...and guess what...i realise i can't download/install msn or yahoo mesenger...not even web messenger...so whts the damn point of me having this lappy all to myself rite??!its administrator disabled...and this is the kinda autonomy trust and liberty your granted as a teacher?!?so what is one expected to do during the rare free period when you dont wanna look at another badly written/spelt/coloured piece of work??read a book silently??colour the page???sit with ur finger on ur lips??anything but msn huh....i think its just this sch tho...another friend of mine who was teaching at a sec. sch fr a while got all the privelege of internet access at ur own desk...well...inequality is another issue altogether.
contrary to common belief and presumption...i like this. i really do. when the squeaky hiiiigh pitched voiced squeals out from the crowd 'byeee teeeeacherrrr!!!'....when cliffy looks at me knowing im breaking out into an inevitable adoring smile, and he purses his lips, eyes defiant and cheeky , trying to decide if he should smile back or not..when kutie ktig gives me the irresistable wide grin, msing teeth and all... and i am hit by awwww and 'wait a sec, this isnt me, i dont really like kids' at once.when i tell kids during assembly to be quiet and pay attention (and they listen)..when i casually say 'hi' to the kids as i pass em by and they dont feel they have to get into 'ostrich mode' - (i really dnt stand for the 12th century china style bow students here greet teachers with).i even like hearing old fond and nearly forgotten terms like recess and tuckshop and sch dentist and basketball court. of late even the pledge and national anthem seem to have taken on renewed significance.
oh yea...i like it..i do....its just a short stint and perhaps that's why....for now,for all it's worth, i guess i cld continue to like it while it lasts...
posted by Kumari | 12:41 PM
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